Single Again
July 19, 2001 - 12:08 a.m.

Mom: What?? Why not?

Me: He couldn't handle the distance.

Mom: Well, he sure didn't try very long!

Me: :::shrug:::

My initial reaction was... it's cool, I'm single now. Then I realized I was single for a year and four months and I'm fucking sick of being single.

Next I thought, it's cool, it'll just go back to how it used to be. He'll hardly ever talk to me online, he'll hardly ever write to me, and he'll fade into the background since he's so bad at keeping contact. Then I realized I really don't want him to fade into the background. I want what we had two and a half weeks ago. But I just hafta wait till I can see him again...

If I'm the strong one, then why am I the one who has to feel so much pain?

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