Old and Bored
August 13, 2000 - 9:31:55 PM

I did hw for like an hour and a half tonight. Anyone who reads this should be proud of me and give me a pat on the back. I finished about half a chapter. This book is sooo much easier to answer questions for. I can't explain how, but it is. I mean, it takes longer I guess in the long run, but I don't get antsy as quickly cuz the answers are shorter and closer together. I'm not really worried about finishing in time anymore cuz of it. I know I can do it.

When I got online I was in a weird mood. I wasn't entertained by the number of IM's I had, so I IMed this girl on my buddylist who I never IM. She was my best friend in like 5th and 6th grade. I hadn't talked to her in about 2 years. It was weird. I still wasn't used to the fact that her dad died, and she told me her mom was getting remarried. She said she didn't like the guy and he'd already been living with them for 6 months. She also said that she had been kicked outta her school for bad grades. That really made me think. When I told my mom she just went off on a she's-a-smart-girl-and-is-only-hurting-herself trip, but I was just like whoa. It was like one of those flashback things in a movie. I started remembering us playing dolls and making forts and stuff. It's amazing how you can be friends with people when you're young and grow up to be totally different. I mean, she was a girl who loved the color pink and make up when we were 10, but she couldn't do anything about it until Jr. High. That's when we stopped being friends. I guess it makes sense, but it's just weird. She was always trendy, and I always wasn't, but somehow when we were young and innocent we clicked. We could never be close friends now because we're so different, but we were then. I feel so old thinking about that kinda stuff even though it was only like 5 years ago. I'm too young to feel old!

That guy whose entire diary I read (I still can't believe I did that.. wait.. I was bored.. of course I did that) and I have been chatting online lately. He's purdy cool, and he's read my entire diary now too. He's mentioned me in his diary twice, and I feel all famous hehe. Yeah, I know, cheap thrills. That's me. Hi Jerry!

Paula got back from her trip to Arizona and what not today. She delt with jet lag by just staying up for like 30 hours straight. I hope she doesn't sleep past her alarm when she hasta go to school tomorrow morning. Now she's gonna get pissed at me for typing that in here and not telling her online. She has this Laura-doesn't-tell-me-anything-so-I-hafta-read-her-diary complex. I'm just not the kinda person who spills about her love life and the kids she works with in IM's without being motivated somehow. I told her that and she stopped bugging me :o) Hi Paula!

Ok, so I have 3 people who I know read this and I've covered 2 of them. That leaves Jeremy. :::sigh::: Jeremy. I was trying to keep my mind off him today. I realize by the time he reads this entry he probably will have read the last one and some kinda shit will have hit some kinda fan. That was a shit-and-fan provoking entry. I don't think I meant for it to be when I wrote it, but now that I look back at it I know something's gonna happen when Jeremy reads it. Anyway, yeah, so :::cringes::: Hi Jeremy!

I just put some really runny lotion on my hands and it took forever to rub it all in cuz it was so runny. I think I got it all over my mouse and keyboard. Oops.

Good lord. It's 10:00 and no one's online. What has this world come to? Someone interesting had better sign on or I'm gonna go crazy. I don't have anything else to do. I wish porn people would stop IMing me.

I was gonna record myself singing today cuz Russell said I should. At least, I think he did. I don't remember. I just remember sending him the wave I have of me singing and him saying it was good and that motivating me. I chickened out. I had everything prepared, but I was afraid my mom would come home in the middle of it, and then Jerry signed on, so I had an excuse not to. I'm such a chicken ass. I really need to become more confident about my voice before the school year starts cuz I signed up for choir.

My hands smell like vanilla now. Yum. I love the smell of vanilla.

I need some music. Wow, isn't it weird when you look at napster and realize that like 5 people have tried to dl mp3's from you and not succeeded and there's someone dling one from you now? You're like, oh yeah, I totally forgot napster was open. Ok, nobody probably relates to that cuz their hair doesn't get blonde highlights during the summer. Oh yeah, so music. I'm gonna add all my mp3's to a play list and put it on random. I never do that, so it sounds like fun.

Did I just hear a ding-dong? I think I just heard a ding-dong! Oh yes, Wendy's online. I have someone to talk to! :::Jumps up and down uncontrollably for 5 minutes::: Ok, I've recovered.

Ok, I just realized I have 183 mp3's and adding them all to a playlist is gonna take forever and a day. I'm like on the letter D and they're mostly in alphabetical order. Oh my, what have I gotten myself into?

I really feel I'm seriously boring whoever may be reading this. I've been writing much too long of entries lately. Nighty night all. Wish me luck entertaining myself. Ta ~BOB

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