Betrayed
September 22, 2001 - 2:40 p.m.

~Wimps. They couldn't tell me when I was doing something that bothered them.

~Back-stabbers. They decided that instead of talking to me about it, they'd just talk shit about me behind my back.

~Liars. When I asked them if they thought Joe meant I was bossy they replied with, "I dunno, maybe. I don't think you're bossy."

~hypocrites. 1) They make fun of other people all the time, but I make a couple cracks about them and I'm suddenly the devil. 2) They talk shit about Joe all the time to me, but when I'm bothering them, they talk shit about me to Joe. 3) One day Holly stated she didn't wanna sit next to Jennifer and sat next to me instead. Jenny and Jennifer both stated they thought this was rude. A couple days later when I sat next to Jenny, she said, "That's where Jennifer's supposed to sit!"

Apparently, I'm "intimidating". This supposedly justifies all the aforementioned acts. I guess they think intimidating people don't have any feelings whatsoever cuz I don't see why friends would do this to their friends. Maybe they aren't friends afterall. I thought all this pety high school drama ended when we stopped being friends with Monica, but apparently I was wrong. Why am I always surrounded by people who would rather hurt others than stand up for themselves? If you have a problem with me, tell me and we can work it out. Any other way of dealing with it leads to a bigger deal than is necessary.

I was beginning to feel excluded from Jenny and Jennifer cuz they had all these new inside jokes and stuff. I thought it was just cuz they're in tennis together, but apparently I was wrong.

I feel betrayed, I feel played for for a fool, and I feel like a loner. I now have a total of ONE friend.

I can't wait to get out of Newark.

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